exitsign: (tv: tara+sookie; friends (true blood))
Sometimes you have to laugh at yourself silly until you cry and relax. Life is good right now and I'm not depressed. Bored, uncertain at what direction I should take with my life but trying not to stress over everything imaginable. (That why I'm trying not to follow News on the internet, I will forever dislike everything.) Still anxious if not depressed but I don't feel as horribly when I was seventeen. (Gosh, I hated everything and myself the most at that age.)

I'm trying to get a handle on my personality because sometimes I still don't understand myself. I need to stop binge reading random blogs.

Almost finish with my first fanmix, now I need to put it in the right order and upload it.

Here some music:
Flashback Hip-Hop [download]
4 My People (featuring Eve) by Missy Elliott (2001) [m4a] / 9-5ers Anthem by Aesop Rock (2001) [m4a] / Fear Not Of Man by Mos Def (1999) [m4a] / Insane In The Membrane by Cypress Hill (1993) / Notorious Thugs (featuring Bone Thugs-n-n Harmony) by The Notorious B.I.G. (1997) / On And On (featuring June Luva & Milk D) by Shyheim (1994) / Peter Piper by Run-D.M.C. (1986) / Po' Folks by Nappy Roots (2002) / Rock the House (featuring Del tha Funkee Homosapien by Gorillaz (2001) / The Whole World by Outkast (2001) / Zealots by The Fugees (1996)

Warning: Offensive lyrics [from religious imagery to slurs of all kind]. 'East Coast' heavy sorry that what I listen to growing up.
exitsign: (sherlock: moriarty; please)
Real Life: If my mom gets a new job by the end of the year, we made move next year. I don't know how I feel about moving right now, I prolly get anxious again with trying to plan a move out. (fyi I not very good at planning.) I'm okay in living in an apartment but we need a place that will let us keep our dog. (I don't want to talk about school.)

I'm working three big recs post for One Direction (has taken over my brain), A Song of Ice and Fire, and the Marvel Cinematic Universe. My sister is going to make me a banner for each post and I can't wait to see them. I found some really great stories and I can't wait to share them. I prolly have to warn that my tastes are strange and not everything I read is quality material.

Mostly vids! Hover over the link to get any warning(s).

Hamlet (1996): Where Is My Mind (or here) by [livejournal.com profile] condnsdmlk (Hamlet, NR)
"Where Is My Mind" (Bassnectar remix) by The Pixies. Dubstep Shakespeare // Dubstep + Hamlet = Love. I totally need to re-watch this film again.

Harry Potter: When the Magic Stops Working by [archiveofourown.org profile] tryslora (Harry/Hermione/Ron, Neville/Luna, Explicit, 39,960 words)
It begins with the end. Magic isn't working anymore. Both in Otter's Ridge, where the Aurors are tasked with finding out why magic has simple disappeared in places and from people, and in the relationships that surround Harry. He isn't sure where to look to find Magic again, and when he does seek it out, finds it in unexpected places, and with unexpected consequences. It will take all of those around him to sort through and bring the magic back to life. // This is every thing I need a trio fic, it is more focus on Harry and Hermione but it didn't bug me as much since the other two sides of the relationship are explore too but in a smaller way. The Neville and Luna relationship was wonderful to see and I enjoy seeing it in this fic.

Labyrinth: Magic Man by [livejournal.com profile] boom_queen (Sarah/Jareth, NR)
Song by Heart. "He's a Magic Man." // Love that this song is use for this movie.

M*A*S*H: the hours between dawn and nothing. (or here) by [archiveofourown.org profile] anotherjuxtaposition (Gen, PG, 9,400 words)
this is war. this is death. this is korea. (and this is how it happens after.) // My feelings about this is huge, I love that everyone is in this, and that BJ went to go see Hawkeye. [M*A*S*H will forever gives me big feelings and I haven't watch the whole thing yet.]

Oz: to the victor goes the spoils by [archiveofourown.org profile] soapboxblues (Ryan O'reily, Ryan/Miguel, R, 2,202 words)
Everyone lies. Every battle has a winner. // One of the best Ryan's character study I found in a while and it the most recent Oz fic that I really like.

Vampire Diaries: i know what i want by Hermy483 (Stefan/Elena, Elena/Damon, SFW)
"Berlin" by Snow Patrol. "So, what do you want?" "I want you to get everything you're looking for." // This is vid is beautiful with it parallels between Elena/Stefan & Elena/Damon. Also, it didn't make me gag and hate Damon/Elena on sight; I really don't like them together or this season finale. Go check it out.

The Truth Is, You Should Lie With Me (or here) by [personal profile] fizzyblogic (Klaus/Stefan, NR)
Song by Say Anything. 'Cause I'm full of hate, just excite me. Half "come at me bro" and half "come in me bro", that's Klaus and Stefan. // Yes, murderboyfriends exactly.
exitsign: (spn: castiel; crack)
I probably drop off from the internet for little while, my dad is in the hospital. He going to be scheduled for open heart surgery, maybe on Friday if no further complications arise. I'm nervous wreck right now and trying not to breakdown. The drive to hospital is also not doing any favors with my anxiety.

I'm not going to class today but I will go tomorrow. I have to pick up my W2 and my dad’s bonus check tomorrow. I don't know what to do today.

Sharing happy music, videos, and/or anything to keep my mind off my troubles, I will appreciates it if you do.
exitsign: (stock: girl on a beach)
I'm back in class and I feel successful. My goal for this school year is to receive a 4.0 and be on the Dean's List. I know I can do this and I will make it happen. I need to start working on studying for MOS certification.

I want to be more positive this year so I'm staying away from things that make me too emotional or starts making me have negative thoughts. I want to control at least some aspect of my life and I'm going to try not to click on links to read post that's anger me.

I'm worry about my dad's health he saw the cardiologist today and got schedule an appointment for a stress test next week.

I'm having a minor problem with my display driver (on my laptop) and working on that problem right now and then off to bed to start another day.
exitsign: (killjoys: last stand)

Future Islands - Balance from Thrill Jockey Records on Vimeo.

This video is so beautiful; I totally need someone to write a fic for this vid. I love their journey to the beach and look at their faces when they get there. Hearts are in my in my eyes. I totally got invested in the visual story even though the song is okay.

I only have one Future Islands song in my iTunes, I may try them out.


I hate when family comes over, we didn't invite you and I hate not knowing the reason why. I understand why my mom don't like my dad oldest brother, jerk face. (Why do you have to be in my class and I want to punch your face.)

This day is very weird and I'm trying not to freak out about my dad's health.

I go back to school on a Tuesday.
exitsign: (tv: ot3; a/g/l (merlin))
I'm really enjoying school right now, I'm not doing anything too difficult and I haven't had a freak out yet. I think I like being back to school. I made a new friend, a cool chick and she great, and totally bought me a taco at break.

I receive my b-day and Christmas and I'm so happy and grateful. I got a Captain America shield shirt, a Nicki Minaj shirt, and lord beholds an Amazon Kindle. I'm almost cried with happiness. I'm totally going to clean my room spotless for these three.

In other happy news, I have internet back at my house. Yeah I can post more regularly and not post from my school computer lad because it makes me feels weird.

.: Merlin BBC :.
Handfast (or here, here) | [personal profile] hope [Arthur/Gwen/Lancelot, PG, 1,704 words]
Gwen gets married twice in one day.

Son of Camelot (or here, here) | [archiveofourown.org profile] arobynsung [Arthur/Gwen, Gwen/Lancelot, Arthur/Gwen/Lancelot, Not Rated, 744 words]
Camelot needs an heir but the Old Religion is still punishing the Pendragon line.

Promises (or here) | [archiveofourown.org profile] Glinda [Arthur/Gwen/Lancelot, others, PG-13, 2,200 words]
Safety means different things to different people. Some stories start long before anyone realises they have begun.

how this grace thing works (The Promises Kept Remix) (or here) | [archiveofourown.org profile] heathered [Arthur/Gwen/Lancelot, Mature, 3,271 words]
They're well into their story by the time Arthur figures out he's in one.

Fucking Boyfriend | [livejournal.com profile] astartexx [Gwen PoV, Gwen/Arthur, NR]
"Fucking Boyfriend" by The Bird and The Bee. 'Are you an amateur or is it you're unkind?' They dream in courtship, but would wake in wedlock. Or why you shouldn't skip the boyfriend part before marrying a girl. It could leave her with the slight impression that she is your beard.

.: Teen Wolf :.
new ways to fall apart (or here) | [livejournal.com profile] addandsubtract [stiles/lydia/jackson, pg-13, 8,026 words]
in which lydia gets home from the hospital and stiles realizes that he definitely has a type. takes place shortly after the season one finale. “Only you would be annoyed while voluntarily picking up your ex-girlfriend from the hospital,” Stiles says, and smiles. Jackson’s withering glances aren’t nearly as effective now that Stiles has seen what he looks like when he’s about to shit his pants in fear.
exitsign: (tv: stefan; blood (vampire diaires))
Metformin is kicking my sister ass, wish there is a way to lessen the side effects. Guh, I hate medications. We started walking again (Music can totally make you forget that your legs are burning.). I seriously need to take control over my health again. I don't want to enter an early grave.

The Mummy I still enjoyed this film, there are parts I don't agree with and wish weren't in there but it stills a great adventure film. The film still has nice mixture of humor and horror (the eyes scene is still creepy) with action that doesn't stop. I watch it three times in a row. There are not that many films I will watch all the way through so I don't really know why I like this to watch it. (I also remember watching this in theater with my dad.)

I finally back-up my files from my laptop and finally re-listen to Backstreet Boys. I'm highly fond of "We've Got It Goin' On" right now and seriously, these guys are still amazing to me.

Hover over the link to get any warning(s).

.: The Vampire Diaries :.
Hey, Stefan, Klaus Called | [livejournal.com profile] rumpleghost [Klaus/Stefan, NR]
"Stephen" by Ke$ha. Spoilers up to 3x05. comment: Perfect song choice, A+.

they say that true love hurts (well this could almost kill me) | [livejournal.com profile] bones_of_you [Klaus/Stefan, PG-13, 988 words]
Coda to 3x03. Some things are better left in the past. comment: Perfect snippet of unrequited love, Klaus is totally in love with Stefan.

i am the conscience clear (or: seven people who think they know stefan salvatore) | [livejournal.com profile] softly_me [canon ships and Stefan/Klaus, NR, ~6,000 words]
Spoilers up through 3x05. Rosie Fell, the reverend's daughter, told him once that he was on a slippery slope, deciding which sins count and which ones don't. Stefan had nodded like he saw the error in his ways, but couldn't help thinking that the rules of society were far too reliant on dishonesty for every lie to matter.
comment: Perfect Stefan character study, he def. my favorite even though I haven't watch any more of this show since the first season.

I'm A Neon Sign And I Stay Open All The Time | [livejournal.com profile] stainofmylove [Klaus/Stefan, R, ~820 words]
It’s not about breaking you down. It’s about making you love him, too. comment: Creepy as fuck, like it should be, ppl I need more Klaus/Stefan.

History Repeating | [livejournal.com profile] unoshot [Damon, Stefan, Elena, Katherine, a hint of Klaus, PG-13, 3,800 words]
It's all been done before.
comment: Damon and Stefan, ppl need to write more about their relationship, I like the used of mythology and formatting was great.
exitsign: (inception: ariadne; architect)
Bathroom drain is unclog, finally yeah. Pain medication is taken, Costochondritis is a bitch (It felt like I was having a heart attack or a serve panic attack at Target at all places).

My lovely mother found a part-time job and I nervously gathering courage to enroll into school to receive a diploma. Money I wish I had it so I paid for school, looking for a good loan is making sweat and cringe. Horrible researcher, I am truly can't seem to be able to used internet to find important information.

Making a decision to buy a Kindle or save my money for school is tough. Saving money that what I got to do.

My sister made have PCOS, scariness, maybe I shouldn't be afraid but anything medical make me feel scared. Her doctor apportionment is today. If she does have then I have to go get tested and my sister already she didn't like the specialist she seeing.(Test was inconclusive but she has to take metofmin.)

I'm enjoying my experience with pinboard. I’m still taking my time fixing my bookmarks but I very happy that I have all of them. Looking for more people to add my network, my interests tend to change every month so I need to find more multi-fannish people.

Hover over the link to get any warning(s). ♥ marks favorites.

.: X-Men: First Class :.
Utopia (or here, or here) | [livejournal.com profile] takmarierah [Charles/Erik, R, 77,900 words]
"Erik has succeeded in taking over the world, but mutant utopia has yet to materialize. Charles is his reluctant companion." WIP, last updated: 2011-10-31.

So good, everyone should drop what their doing to read this. There is so much richness in this world and the push and pull of Erik and Charles is done brilliantly, that I seriously have no idea what kind of ending can leave a satisfying conclusion. I can't help be in Charles’s school pitying Erik to anger.

Nine Eleven Ten (or here) | [livejournal.com profile] subtilior [Erik/Charles, Mature, 155,458 words]
Dark!Beauty and the Beast AU. Years later, Charles would remember that day. Sometimes he would wonder if he could have changed anything; other times he would despair over what he had since become. But he would always hold the image in his mind: Raven, laughing, and his thoughts flying alongside her on strong wings, silver-gold through the winter air. Once upon a time. WIP, last updated: 2011-11-01.

This fic is full of my favorite kind of BRILLIANCE, I love the subtle characterization of Charles, brave, foolish and so many things that you rooting for him. I love how dark this story is and with right mixture of horror and resilience needed to balance things in. Author def. has a unique writing style and I enjoyed reading hir Labyrinth fic that I read recently that enjoyable in its darkness. Go read it you haven’t and don’t let the WIP deter you.

An Earlier Heaven (or here, or here) | [personal profile] regann [Erik/Charles, Teen, 46,366 words]
In the wake of Cuba, Charles and his students are ready to pick up the pieces and work toward achieving Charles's dream of a safe haven for young mutants. Those plans, however, take a surprising turn thanks to a very unexpected complication. As he slowly builds a future for his students and for his child, Charles struggles with the loss of Erik and the secrets he's willing to keep to protect his family, but those strides are shattered when Erik makes a startling reappearance into his life. WIP, last updated: 2011-11-02.

I couldn't resist this fic, I love a good mpreg story that is more drama than crack, with honest characterization, Alex is def. my favorite, and that I enjoyed this one a whole lot.
exitsign: (the pacific: snafu; crazy grin)
I'm alive, mostly. I finally realize how addicted I'm to the Internet. I went through withdrawal not having it in the house or on my mobile. I'm slowly reading fic I can save from the library to read later at home. I hate the nearest library to my house only allow me to use Internet Explorer. I really hate that browser, always giving me a headache.

I'm slowly trying to read real books to curb my withdrawal. I totally feel like it not working but I'm trying.

I don’t think I will be trying to post regular recs post again. I don’t have the energy to do it. It makes me sad to think that I don’t have internet at home.

I finally got to watch Captain America, thank you dad, which made me happy and I also finally watch the final season of Avatar: the Last Airbender. (Thank you nicktoons.) Zuko is my new favorite, love how he progress as a character.
exitsign: (killjoys: korba kid)

pine your eyes are impossibly blue

I have no internet at home, right now I'm at the library and I don't want to format my recs post today so I'm not making one. I don't know when the next time I get to post. Damn I feel like I wasted my time paying for this account and I can't used it daily. I want the opportunity to use my icons. Ah well, I gave money to a site that I like at least.


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Listen.. people be asking me all the time, "Yo Mos, what's gettin' ready to happen with Hip-Hop?"

I tell em, "You know what's gonna happen with Hip-Hop? Whatever's happening with us"

If we smoked out, Hip-Hop is gonna be smoked out. If we doing alright, Hip-Hop is gonna be doing alright.

People talk about Hip-Hop like it's some giant livin' in the hillside comin' down to visit the townspeople.

We ARE Hip-Hop. Me, you, everybody, we are Hip-Hop. So Hip-Hop is going where we going.

So the next time you ask yourself where Hip-Hop is going, ask yourself, "Where am I going? How am I doing?"

'Til you get a clear idea. So.. if Hip-Hop is about the people and the Hip-Hop won't get better until the people get better, then how do people get better? Well, from my understanding people get better when they start to understand that, they are valuable...

"Fear Not Of Man" - Mos Def


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